Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mother's Day!

Hope you mothers out there have a great and relaxing day!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

There really is not much on my mind lately. God has been good to us the past few days. We decided to "give up" Eating Out for our own personal Lent. We started on Sunday and so far so good. We have made dinners and lunches from home and I have started cooking again! It has been fun for my husband cooks with me. There is a sense of peace when we are both in the kitchen and working with each other as a team to create our meal.

This also came at a great time for we are really low on cash at the moment. We did not have much but we did tithe at our church. We are putting our faith in God that he will provide for us and He definitely has so far!

Monday, March 2, 2009

My Own Epiphany

You are probably wondering why my blog name has changed.....well, last Sunday (yesterday to be precise), I had an epiphany, or realization, if you will. Let me start from the beginning.....

I started out by asking God for an answer. Something! I was tired of not knowing what he was trying to teach me.

Our Bible Study that is Thursday mornings has been on Jacob, Rachel, and Leah. Or to elaborate, on Jacob (I showed up a few weeks later and it was on Jacob, Rachel, and Leah). The study this last Thursday was on Leah having know, the blog I posted a few days ago.... Leah had her wake up call on her 4th child and I had mine through books. During one of the days of our "homework" before Thursday had a question or two about "The Woman at the Well". You can find her in John 4:5-42. She has no name, just a woman getting water who meets Jesus, but she is now dear to my heart.

Well, after that first mention of "The Woman" in the study, I also came upon her reading a book that is called "Bad Girls of the Bible And What We Can Learn from Them" by Liz Curtis Higgs. It is coincidental to note that the Bible study we did was also by Liz. This book had another link to "The Woman".

The THIRD time I heard about "The Woman" was when I was surfing the web. I went to a link, which took me to another link, then another, then know the drill. I ended up at the site "The Way of the Master" and found this video clip. That was my other blog I posted a few days ago. THIS video had a comment about...yours truly, "The Woman at the Well". At this point I said "OK Lord I am listening!" Which brings me to Sunday......

The topic of the service was "The Wrestler" and it was about Jacob........Yes, I said Jacob. The same Jacob who loved Rachel more than Leah....the same JACOB who, in the story of "The Woman at the Well", had owned this well that Jesus met and talked to this woman. This topic at church was about how Jacob wrestled with God and had overcome. God wants us to wrestle Him....ask Him questions. If we remember, God touched the socket of Jacob's hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled but Jacob stuck with it. Even through the pain, he stuck with God.

I have been wrestling with God about this whole pregnancy thing. And there has been pain. But I am sticking with God!

They ended with this verse: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; those who seek find; and tho those who knock, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:7-8

Don't be afraid to ask God tough questions. He wont turn you away!

And what did "The Woman" do? Asked questions. "She wasn't shy about pressing for answers and didn't hesitate to ask for clarification" said Liz in her book.

Oh! And by the way....I chose the word Epiphany first then when I went to see how it was correctly spelled in the dictionary I found this:

1) A Christian feast observed on January 6th celebrating the visit of the Magi to Jesus.
2) A revelatory manifestation esp. of a divine being.

I didn't realize it had anything to do with Christianity. LOL

Oh! And I recommend getting an Apologetics Study Bible...they are great!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Must See Video....

I spent the last half hour watching this video and I LOVED it!

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Letting Go.......

Why is letting go one of the hardest things to do?

I felt like I was through the pain of my three miscarriages but this week has proven that I am not. The Bible Study was based on Jacob, Rachel, and Leah and this last week (today) was on Leah having the first 4 sons. The topic was on Leah and how, in her "weak" state (unloved by everyone), was seen by God and He gave her the honor of having the first sons. She had three in the hopes that NOW her husband would love her, her 4th son had the realization that Jacob still did not "love" her but God did, so she praised God. We also talked about how important it is errr....was to have children and so on....I had to leave the conversation for a few minutes to compose myself.

Why do I KNOW that God will give me the joys of my heart, but for some reason, I don't believe He would do that for I am the exception. Does that even make sense? I pray a lot that HIS WILL BE DONE, but do I believe it whole heartedly? And WHY do I think that?

I feel that this whole miscarriage biz has changed my relationship with Him. I don't sing at church with my whole heart anymore and that hurts me more than anything. How can I bring it back? I pray He will show me the answers soon.....

PS I try to add fun and interesting blogs but I only really feel like blogging when something happens.....

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

New to Blogger!

Well now.....

I thought I would give this blog site a whirl. I have another one on Livejournal, but thought I would try another site and compare the two. Let me post from something I had a few days ago on the other blog.....

I finally was able to head to this Bible Study that started a few Thursdays ago that I was invited to. The subject was on "Blind Love" and told the story of Jacob and Rachel. Before the video part though, the groups would talk amongst themselves about the homework they had days before. Since I was new I didn't have much to say on it so I was just observing and listening. One lady had a comment that stuck out for me. Since we were talking about love, we got to unconditional love and how God loves us unconditionally. But the comment she had was that she didn't know how to love God back. She was talking of the physical sense I think, like you love your family (hugs, kisses and so forth), but you can't love God like that. A few of us mentioned the verses that recalled - loving someone else, you love God. This brings me to my thought of the day.

We are all a part of God, not saying that we ARE God. What I mean is that we are created in His image, He created us. Which means to me........If you love your wife or husband, you will love God. If you love your kids, you will love God.......If you love your neighbor, you will love God.......If you love the guy who cut you off this morning on the way to work, you will love God......If you love the teenagers who play their music too loud, the person who takes the last item off the shelf as you were reaching for it, the student who acts up and disrupts the class, the elderly person that is just walking too slow in front of you, the cop who just wrote you a ticket, the boss that just chewed you out....and yes, your parents...YOU WILL LOVE GOD!