Must See Video....

I spent the last half hour watching this video and I LOVED it!

http://www.wayofthemaster.com/hbks.shtml

Letting Go.......

Why is letting go one of the hardest things to do?

I felt like I was through the pain of my three miscarriages but this week has proven that I am not. The Bible Study was based on Jacob, Rachel, and Leah and this last week (today) was on Leah having the first 4 sons. The topic was on Leah and how, in her "weak" state (unloved by everyone), was seen by God and He gave her the honor of having the first sons. She had three in the hopes that NOW her husband would love her, her 4th son had the realization that Jacob still did not "love" her but God did, so she praised God. We also talked about how important it is errr....was to have children and so on....I had to leave the conversation for a few minutes to compose myself.

Why do I KNOW that God will give me the joys of my heart, but for some reason, I don't believe He would do that for ME.....like I am the exception. Does that even make sense? I pray a lot that HIS WILL BE DONE, but do I believe it whole heartedly? And WHY do I think that?

I feel that this whole miscarriage biz has changed my relationship with Him. I don't sing at church with my whole heart anymore and that hurts me more than anything. How can I bring it back? I pray He will show me the answers soon.....

PS I try to add fun and interesting blogs but I only really feel like blogging when something happens.....

New to Blogger!

Well now.....

I thought I would give this blog site a whirl. I have another one on Livejournal, but thought I would try another site and compare the two. Let me post from something I had a few days ago on the other blog.....

I finally was able to head to this Bible Study that started a few Thursdays ago that I was invited to. The subject was on "Blind Love" and told the story of Jacob and Rachel. Before the video part though, the groups would talk amongst themselves about the homework they had days before. Since I was new I didn't have much to say on it so I was just observing and listening. One lady had a comment that stuck out for me. Since we were talking about love, we got to unconditional love and how God loves us unconditionally. But the comment she had was that she didn't know how to love God back. She was talking of the physical sense I think, like you love your family (hugs, kisses and so forth), but you can't love God like that. A few of us mentioned the verses that recalled - loving someone else, you love God. This brings me to my thought of the day.

We are all a part of God, not saying that we ARE God. What I mean is that we are created in His image, He created us. Which means to me........If you love your wife or husband, you will love God. If you love your kids, you will love God.......If you love your neighbor, you will love God.......If you love the guy who cut you off this morning on the way to work, you will love God......If you love the teenagers who play their music too loud, the person who takes the last item off the shelf as you were reaching for it, the student who acts up and disrupts the class, the elderly person that is just walking too slow in front of you, the cop who just wrote you a ticket, the boss that just chewed you out....and yes, your parents...YOU WILL LOVE GOD!

Thoughts?